It’s been a while since I had the luxury to sit down, be by myself, and reflect on what had happened to me in the past 3 months.
I was looking for a job, and still am in the process of waiting. But it was unbelievable, the best time I’ve ever spent…
The time was extremely tough because I failed, hardly ever my whole life, but I failed, countless times. I was rejected by a number of major players in the industry that I felt I belong to. I was embarrassed by not knowing some basic terminology or silly codes which I learned within 48 hours, or a personality test that indicates I’m either too much of a decision-maker or a thinker who uses not only facts but imagination also. I was close to getting chocked by the screening process. But looking back, I laugh at it and think to myself “how funny it would be if a ballet dancer was questioned whether she knows how to move her hips?”
I have no complaints, but it was part of my growing pain. I recall a classmate who was experiencing the same called me at the time that “I feel like I was losing my mind!” No joking. You wouldn’t find it’s funny if it happened to you. The glamour of my doctoral diploma started to fade long ago since when rejection started to cloud my big blue sunny sky… I remember the last time when I was in the dean’s office completing all the steps I need to graduate, she said to me – I think you are ready to rock’n roll!
I thought it was a compliment, but hardly did I know, it was nearly impossible for a ballet dancer to rock’n roll.
It is not so much about the dance itself, but rather how willing you are to make the change. Emotional control is the key to success in this climb, not your intellect, your muscles, or anything physical. It’s metaphysical. It’s your choice between either losing the game or losing your mind.
Think outside the box and step outside your comfort zone – this is what I believe in and act upon. I left my country for higher education years ago, and now leaving academia for a world of possibilities. I learned that only when you embrace the impossibles, will you begin to make it happen.